最近時不時都會在夢里碰見一個人. 感覺好像是’案件從演’.
以前覺得能夠繼續把他當朋友, 是一種’瀟灑’. 現在卻好像已經變成一種’虛偽’.
慶幸的是,在現實生活中, 我想已經不太可能會再見到他了.
只要我能夠叫他不再跟我連絡…
但怎樣才能把他從夢里趕走?

i need a dream catcher.
or more dreamless nights..

decided to do something else besides work before the start of a new week.

didn’t design this though.
just found it on the web.
i liked it the moment i saw it.
=)

but some how i wiped out the comments on my wall in the process of changing it.
…

i have no idea when i could come out with my own design.
everything is still work-in-progress.
…
lacking inspirations.

my first time to the place…
i didn’t even know how the building looked like.
somehow i managed to find it..

it looked like a pretty nice place to hang out when i arrived there at half past 8, until it was surrounded by smoke and drunk gals sitting by the pavements past midnight…

we went to a karaoke place on the third level of dragonfly.
A very nicely decorated place~
looked like the interior of a castle~
=)

very nice.
one of the rare times that i would go for a gathering with pple whom i m not too close to.
though my mind was thinking about acl codings and what time i should leave so that i have ample rest for work the next day.
but it was fun.
the happiness, and craziness, of pple helps.
reminds me of the iuj days.
i miss my crazy frens.

passed by the club on the first level.
not comfortable in the crowd.
cld feel the heat from the dance floor.
that kind of craziness was a bit overwhelming.
it was not about the loud music.
but rather the way pple were losing themselves in the crowd.

very much wanted to head to a jazz bar~
but decided to head home to get ready for the next day~

first time near any clubs in sg.
my clubbing experience was only in China.
and it was really an experience.
before the opening of the dance floor.
there was a cockfighting ’show’.
two cocks fighting in the middle of the stage.
was pretty amazed.
then there was pole dancing.
by some gals with super hot bodies
i wished i were a les, or rather, wished that they were les.
X)

aniwaez, those experience was enough to satisfy my curiosity about what pple do in clubs.
i would very much prefer bars.
or simply.. cafes~

I like mornings like this when I can slowly sip a cup of freshly brewed coffee.
=D

Though the truth is that I left my staff pass in client’s place.
And now I am waiting for the key to client’s place to arrive. X)

Blessing in disguise.

And I saw this:

Singapore National Barista Championship 2010
Suntec City Convection Room 303 and 304
25 to 27 February 2010

Anyone interested in going to see see look look?

a love-hate relationship with my job now.
half of the time i dunnoe what i am doing.
i dun find myself busy enough.
two possibilities – am i efficient or incompetent?
…
yet i really like the freedom and flexibility of the work environment.

i think i may be interested in forensic computing.
though i am not too sure if i can be technical enough for that.
will see.

attending an upcoming course on IT security.
yes, after all the considerations of flash design/visual comm/fashion design/whatever-i-thought-i-am-more-interested-in, i am going to learn to be a hacker.
i do surpise even myself quite often.

or see it this way.
if you can’t decide for one in a list of want-to-do-s.
that means you are just not interested enough in any of those on the list.
and settling for something outside the list is not that all surprising.

just like..
being an auditor has never been on my list until the day i found myself submitting the resume.
i think the same goes for anything – if u cant decide betw two persons, it wouldnt be unlikely that you will end up with somebody else besides the two

and retain just showed that i have triple bookings in march.
same time as the course.
going to busy ahead.

thinking if I should go hk or tw in end-april/may…
or tokyo?
or hk-tw?
or hk-tkyo?
or maybe i should just rent a hut in sentosa to meditate~
X)

- Janice 的一首新歌.Original title 是李聖杰的’痴心絕對’.

本來不太喜歡翻唱歌曲… 因為歌詞’翻譯’後,總會變的怪怪的.
這首… 卻很喜歡…
又是林夕的詞….

痴心絕對表達的是一個男生,看著喜歡的她在別人身邊, 能愛不能愛的感覺.
而這首廣東版的卻表達一個女生把自己困在進退兩難的處境… 一種…self-victimization 的感覺
很完美地把國語男生版變成了廣東女生版….

有時我真的懷疑林夕到底是不是女生….

殘酷遊戲
曲：蔡伯南 詞：林夕 編: 雷頌德

誰能用毅力便換來感情 誰憑施捨可保得住慘勝
你有多大量 亦未敢領我的情 但就算是惡夢 拒絕甦醒
如何用玩命 換來溫柔 如何比她好 一樣不夠
談情像奮鬥 共誰在鬥 沒人道別亦知一早要走

其實自命受苦都只因我能離不離
看著對你愛得彷似愛情欲避不避
若能耗盡力氣 去捕捉你
亦能剩下自己可挽救自己
我也知越是幻想不准想你更記得起
我在故意去將苦澀替代寂寞滋味
用殘酷遊戲 製造卑微
自由自在莫非慘過永遠受氣

對你怎麼好 亦無所圖 同情分多少 都也得到
明明避過你 未憑命數 明明極易活得比死更好

我也知越是幻想不准想你更記得起
我在故意去將苦澀替代寂寞滋味
用殘酷遊戲 製造卑微
自由自在莫非慘過永遠自欺

我也知道遠處有人愛惜我 也知做人無求最好不過
我肯知錯也是錯 我想知道也做到
埋頭事業便令大家好過

其實自命受苦都只因我能離不離
看著對你愛得彷似愛情欲避不避
若能耗盡力氣 去捕捉你
亦明如何才可釋放我傷悲
我也知越是幻想不准想你更記得起
我在故意去將苦澀替代寂寞滋味
用殘酷遊戲 製造卑微
自由自在莫非慘過永遠受氣

若然被嫌棄 也是天理 自憐自虐自討苦吃貴客自理

- understanding philosophy through jokes..

A book that caused me to grin like an idiot on the mrt.

Philosophy = jokes.

Some most remembered phrases:

- Philosophy of religion: … life is a constant cycle of frustration and boredom. When we don’t have what we want, we’re frustrated. When we do what we want, we’re bored.

- Existentialism:… a bioethical philosophy that encourages the honest acceptance of death. ‘Customer in a restaurant: How do you prepare your chicken?; Cook: Oh, nothing special really. We just tell them they’re gonna die.’

X)

Time to buy more books!

now that i am finally owning an ipod (after wanting it since ages ago), i find myself becoming less and less of an apple fan.

after speculations of a revolutionary netbook, apple finally introduced iPad – which in my opinion, resembles a large iphone.

cool…
may lead the trend of electronic books and newspapers…
i love the fact that the battery can last for 10 hours per charge.
other than that?

oki.. now my heart is with VAIO Pocket PC…
..

i still wanna get an iMAC though..
the old chunky retro style that i don’t think is available on the market now…

My home is a very quiet place to be.
Mainly becos conversations don’t usually take place at home.
So rare, that I actually remember the two non-hi-bye conversations within the past 7 days…

Translated:

(When she was leaving the house)
Me: “Bye, let me lock the door for you.”
She: “No! You shouldn’t lock the door from inside, let me lock with key.”
Me: “….”

…

(As I stepped into the house)
Me:”Arlo~ You are back so early toda….”
She: “Don’t leave your shoes on this side, leave it on the doormat!”
Me: “….”

I prefer hi-bye or good-morning-good-night interactions more. X)

This morning I woke up from a horrible dream..
about an ex-friend. Memories were re-played.
But my reactions or anger were much more exaggerated..
I resorted to all childish acts of ‘de-friending’ a person.
which included deleting all possible connections from phone to msn to facebook, cutting myself away from common friends etc.

I woke up wondering why I had that dream,
yet I was feeling glad that it was just a dream.
Else he would always have been remembered as the person
whom I specially take the effort to remove all connections to..

SOmetimes, it is better to let a person,
whom you are trying to forget,
to just fade away in the memories.
Just like everyone else whom you are unconsciously losing contact with.

Aniwaez, on my way to work,
I confidently stepped off the train one station earlier than the supposed station.
And I was so amused by my foolishness,
and flushed all the bad mood away.

Another boring day ahead..